DH had his varicocelectomy on Tuesday June 19th. I've told him since they scheduled it that I would probably find out I was pregnant the day after his surgery, making the surgery pointless. Well, low and behold 4 days later I saw 2 beautiful (but very faint) pink lines on a test...or 10 of them. I was so worried Because the line was so light. but I figured it would get darker. Well Monday it didn't get darker, it actually went away. After getting 9 positives on 2 different brands of tests it was now negative. I knew in my heart what that meant... I was having a chemical pregnancy. I called my doctor with the concerns and they were going to do hCG draws Monday, Wednesday, and Friday to see if it was doubling like it should. While at the lab I used the bathroom an noticed I had started bleeding. Fears confirmed. I had lost another baby. I called the doctors office again tuesday to see where my levels were and see what they Said about the bleeding. My level were already down to 3.3. Already negative and no need to repeat on Wednesday. She said they don't even count that as a miscarriage since it is so common and my "period" was only two days late. Had I not tested the day my period was due, I wouldn't have even known I was pregnant. I don't care what they say, I WAS pregnant. And now I'm not. I now have another due date to deal with-March 4, 2013.
While this loss is no where near as hard emotionally, it still hurts. I don't even know where to turn at this point. No one even knew I was pregnant so I don't have anyone I can talk to. The sadness is just continuing to build. :-(
But I did see a RE before I found out and IF I am not pregnant (but I so hope I am) by September, DH will do another semen analysis. And then the next cycle around then I will start clomid cd 3-7, have an ultrasound cd 13, if my follicles look good, I will trigger ovulation with ovidrel. We will either do IUI (artificial insemination) or know that I will ovulate in the next 36 hour and know when to get busy on our own.
All I know is if I see one more pregnancy announcement/baby belly/ gender reveal/ or anything pregnancy related, I might SNAP! I want that for me and my family. Is that too much to ask?!? I just want a baby :-(
