why did i step on the scale?

i decided i wanted to know how much my two and a half year old weighed yesterday. and since the only way to get her on the scale it to weigh myself, then hold her and weigh both of us, i figured why not. now i want to know why i decided to do that. it was horrible. i have gained fifteen lbs since my miscarriage. ugh.

i thought i would be at at least the same weight. for two weeks after my mc, i had no appetite and hardly ate. and since then i have been just eating nomal. i know too its not a huge weight gain but i was already over weight so now i have to deal with in my ttc journey. i really need to lose some weight asap. it makes things even worse knowing im carrying around all this extra weight.